Who is Zen Archer?

From the lofty introduction you might think this blog will be full of a lot of heady Gondi like wisdom.  Nope!  This is just my struggle with life and how I come to terms with it all.  The Questions I ask, I am sure, are the same ones you have asked yourself.  So this Blog is more thought provoking question and examination than it is answers. My intent is to make this place much like the novel "Zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance". This is about the journey.

That being said, Let me tell you a little about myself. I was born in December of 1956 in the north eastern part of Ohio.  Both of my parents had been married before they met.  My father had married during the second world war and brought his wife from England to the USA.  She didn't like it here.  They divorced and she returned home.  My Mother was widowed and the mother of 3 children.  The only one left living at home when my parents met was my youngest sister, who married and moved out before I was five. My eldist sister was married with kids of her own, as was my oldest brother.

So for all means and purposes, I was the Eldest child at home.  My Parents had my brother 2 years after I was born.  He and I are as different as night and day.  I was born into a Southern Baptist (christian) home.  We attended church every Sunday and often on Wednesday.   I attended a Luthern School, as my parents wanted me to have the "Chistian values" taught to me both at home and in school.  While I was never a great studant, I excelled in religion.  Being a Sagatarius, I am a seeker of truth.  Philosophy has been an interest all my life.

Eventualy, my parents stopped attending church.  This was mostly due to a bout of depression my mother suffered.  I was a young teen when this happened.  When I became old enough to drive, I returned to the same church they attended on my own.  I have been baptised twice. Once when very young, and once as a re-affirmation of my belief.  The Church often held readings.  This was a Marathon Bible reading where congrigation members would take turns reading while others followed along.  I have read the entire bible this way, from one cover to the other, almost Ten times.  Yes, I know what the King James version of the Holy Bible says.

I met the 1st love of my life at church, she sang in the choir, as I did. Approx. 3 years later, we married, just after graduation.  That Marrige produced 4 children ( the 1st 3 girls ) and lasted 22 years.  We eventualy became "too busy" for church. While I can't speak for her, my beliefs also changed.  Then for reasons I sometimes am not sure of myself, it ended.  While we were both ready to move on, it was my now Ex-wife that took the legal steps to end it.  This was by far the most painful time of my life without exclusion.
That was some 10 or so years ago.  My Ex remarried and I am still single ( although I have had a couple relationships since then ).

I dare say, I have learned more about the world around me, as well as about myself, since that time.  I have come to terms with who I am, and what I believe.  The one thing I can say without a doubt is that I am not a christian, nor am I a believer in "A GOD". 

I don't preach my beliefs.  I believe everyone has a right to make their own determination to the existace of a higher power.  I retain the values I learned when growing up, for the most part. I believe in the 10 commandments, altho consider them more Guidelines to life.  Fact is many "Christians" don't follow them as closely as I do.

And so… This is WHO I am, my history & background.  I have told you all of this so you know, I have paid my dues.  I have "been there". I have found peace in what I believe, and like who I am today.  At almost 50 years of age, I am still a studant of human nature & am still a seeker of truth & balance.

Published on May 9, 2006 at 10:29 am  Leave a Comment  

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